3:10 am
Mind on a million thoughts, eyes watery red and tired, body is drained…I have done nothing today.
Stress is pain and it feels like hell…throat closing, chest tightening …body sores…I cant take no more…
Feelings of depression lingering through my body sucking the life out of me…I feel trapped ..frustrated on how to break free…
All I want to do is smile and for once just sleep in peace….
Today
Days I hate rainy ones but today is not that bad. Sitting in a noisy lunchroom filled with no one I really know I’m not feeling the least bit like an outsider…ten thousand sounds and the only thing I hear is my voice in my head. It’s reassuring me to not let this day be gloomy…but insightful tuning out negativity that often plagues my mind on days like today.
Sometimes
When I look at my baby nephew…I cry a little…he represents so much…like potential….like unconditional love….like a life that maybe filled with joy and pain….with more losses than gains….success and failures….his smile seems.so bright….just like the future…..
